I’d just published The Year of the Frog, when this amazing woman and friend offered to take some artistic pictures of the women where I live.
She explained they would be tasteful nude photos in the wilderness of Costa Rica. “Bare in the Wild” was the name of the project. If you read my memoir then you know my struggle with body image. If you are female and grew up in this world, well…then you know my struggle with body image.
It was perfect timing for the photo shoot because I had told my life story and was feeling the freedom that comes from something that epic. In order to do such a thing you really have to come to terms with your shit.
When I stopped judging myself, I stopped all the judgement. You too can leave the hell behind when you understand the hell is in your own mind.
I do not believe negative thoughts anymore. Some 90% of thought is negative. I understand their irrelevance. And in understanding the irrelevance of my thought, I understand the irrelevance of yours.
We can all easily love perfection. That is no task at all. The problem is the truth rarely matches the perfect image we think we want. We are seekers of the truth. That bold statement stops me in wonder of why we must seek truth at all?
Why? Is it because we don’t like it, so we hide it? Or we don’t even see it? Is it because we’ve heard so many lies and we ourselves lie enough to know how easy it is to put on the show? Is it because our own mind lies to us more than 90% of the time?
In the good ole US of A, this man is screaming “his” naked truth that most of us are unwilling to face. I am not for him. I am not for thoughtless mind. I am not for government of any kind. I do not like the things he says. I do not like borders. I spent my entire life tearing down walls why on earth would I want another?
But the truth is, when I lived in that materialistic world, I automatically thought many of his thoughts. I had to get way the f*ck out of the picture to see the picture.
I know many “United Statesians” work hard. You work so hard you rarely rest. The truth is you don’t want to feel like your life effort was worthless. You don’t want to share the pie you feel your energy created more than most. And the thought of a material man playing puppet on your borders makes you feel your pie, and the promised pie in the sky are secure under this man’s wingless order.
I know my spiritual fling that took me to other countries, urks many. I talk about past lives, Mother Nature, connection and energy. Hell, most the thoughts I have now would have placed me in a mental institution back in the day. I hear you. You don’t like woo woo spiritualism. But the opposite of spiritualistic is materialistic.
We’ve already been down the material road. And honey, the truth is your streets are not paved in gold.
I am trying to see what the material man represents in a way we can all appreciate. He may be shining a light on the dark that we must face if we are going to awake. And we are going to awake! The fact that people are following him means these beliefs still stand. I thank him for undressing the truth. Now we can really see what needs our love to improve.
We must find a way to handle the truth. It won’t be perfect. But you can handle it if you handle your own truth first. Could you find it in your heart to love your story? Even the hard truths? There is a Japanese word that means “perfectly imperfect”. “Wabi-sabi” is what they say. I think it is time we understand it, use it, and come to love it because the truth will not be perfect in any way.
See my naked body. It has scars. It has a couple of enhancements that did not change a thing. Because it only added more scars and internally, I still felt things needed fixing. The way I felt about my body at its 18 year perfection, is the way I felt about my body carrying 90 pounds of excess fat during pregnancy. Perfect or imperfect it was not good enough for a mind programmed by a fix it or fake it society.
The moment we come into this world we are labeled with thought. Thought that becomes your default—names, religions and a mindless color based on the frequency our skin emits. If you are smart enough to judge like this, then you are smart enough to know your dumb-ass is labeling skin color by not what frequency is absorbed but the energy coming off of it. Material man your white skin that crawls in anger is not absorbing the light, it is blocking it.
We do not need more hate in this world. But if it is your truth, I accept it. And I accept that because I was programmed by society, I too once believed my hateful thoughts were true.
They are just thoughts. Easily changeable. Like the thought I once had that my naked body was bad. In the absence of light everything in this world appears dark to our eye. It only takes one small truth to reignite.
Change your truth by changing the record that plays the same as yesterday in your mind.
Quantum physics has proven the things that exists are what we place in our awareness. What we give our attention grows. Where attention goes energy flows. There is even evidence that this very now is altering the future. Well yes, that’s quite an easy truth to see, but brace yourself, because the evidence reveals this now is also altering the past simultaneously!
Maybe this woo woo spirituality energy being present thing is not so freaky? There is a little boy throwing a temper tantrum in your country and either we reinforce the tantrum by giving it our attention or we extinguish the unwanted thought by not only ignoring it but placing our awareness on something, anything, good and true in this instant.
Will it ever be good enough? This moment. This you. This breath. And now this one and the next. When will we awake to see the beauty of today? When will you be good enough to deserve your love and praise? How about now? Could you love your scars and flaws?
Can we love this man in all his negativity? I think in most philosophies they teach to love your enemy. I agree. My enemy was me. And I suspect so many are following Mr. Monetary because he honestly reflects what the mirror sees.
But baby, just because you thought a thought the same as the enemy, does not mean you have to continue to agree! You are not your thoughts. You are not your beliefs. You are not even the reflection that you see.
This is the year of truth. It won’t be perfect. It is going to uncover so many flaws. But it will not be imperfect either—both are judgments of mind. Can you sit at the feet of your life and watch this wild, wabi-sabi ride?
Just watch. Don’t judge.
Thoughts are mostly wrong, beliefs are those wrong thoughts, judgments are ingrained beliefs that you’ve thought long enough. Keep trying to perfect it for a future we will never live or accept this wabi-sabi now as imperfect as it is.
You are going to feel naked but you are going to feel free. You my dear, are going to gain so much clarity. It will knock the breath right out of you when the truth comes out full view. But honey you can handle it. You can handle your naked truth. ~ Juls ❤
Juls lives in Costa Rica where she finds her inspiration in nature. She is the author of her award winning memoir, The Year of The Frog, a very adult fairy tale come true about her own journey seeking love.
Her newest book to be published soon, PachaMama Prattle is her most creative endeavor combining her love of nature, meditation, poetry and art.
Find her author works on Amazon under her pen name “Juls Amor”, a name she chose to honor her soul and her Mother’s maiden name “Love”.
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